I was tagged by the beautiful Lyndsey Eden, last August (yes you read that right!) to write a post on why I write. It took me some time to build an online home to share it on. Here it is …
I’ve always been an over-thinker…
Over-thinking sends my head into a spin, thoughts whizzing at a million miles per hour. In no time, my head is overloaded from seeing a situation from all angles. And that’s when anxiety starts to creep in.
I’ve learnt that writing down what’s in my head helps to empty it a little. As my pencil moves across the page, it makes space for me to breathe a little deeper, allowing my thoughts to slow down again.
The writing starts out neat, considered, thoughtful, enquiring, but rapidly turns to a hastened scrawl as I empty my mind out onto the paper as quickly as the thoughts appear in my head, my writing almost illegible as I write to my inner rhythm. When my emotions make their way out onto the page, my feelings shift and change. When my writing slows down, becoming neater again, the storm in my mind passes. I review the debris on the page. Emotions released, I feel lighter, calm again. I see more clearly. I return to the feeling that everything is going to be ok.
I write so I know how I really feel.
Letting the words in my head pour out onto the page soothes me. As my words flow onto the paper, I acknowledge every thought, every feeling. I do my best not to judge what I see on the page and not to edit. I keep going until my hand comes to a stop and a sense of lightness has returned to me. There is space for me to see the thoughts and beliefs that were clogging up my mind. Emptying my mind in this way returns me to stillness. To what is.
I write to heal my heart. I write to express my deepest thoughts. I write to know who I am and how I feel. I write to calm my inner storms. I write to know that all is well.
Do you wish to know that too? How healing feels? How calming happens?
On days where you feel your mind overflowing, pick up a notepad. Head outside to the park (weather permitting!) and fill your lungs with fresh air as you watch the world go by. Write out your thoughts, allowing whatever comes up to pour onto the paper, helping you to release the clutter that’s making you feel restless and anxious.
I hope you return home feeling refreshed, ready to face the world again.
Do you have a writing practice? Whether it’s regular or occasional, what motivates it? How does it make you feel? I’d love for you to share your thoughts in the comments below.